i’ve tried so long to get rid a monster in me. i know she was there, sleeping. and sometimes she wakes up and throwing everything away. she wakes up and ruin everything; my plans, my dreams, my works, and even let me lose the battle and make me lost everything i had. i am a happy heart once and she turned me into a witch who bleed black. so i’m trying so hard to get rid of her. i always remind myself that there is a monster inside of me. i can’t lose control because i’ll wake her up. i can’t be mad because she’ll know and turns everything into a mess.